The first appointment with the social worker.

Our first appointment with our social worker was...disappointing. We were led to a very institutionalized looking room. Small, with metal furniture. Even the tissue box was metal and was bolted to the desk. She started out asking us what we were looking for. We said we would like to adopt a baby, as young as possible, but no older than 2, no sibling groups and I have always wanted a girl, but we are open to either sex. She said that this may not be the best fit for us. That they are there for the children, not for us and if we are looking for an infant, an agency or an attorney may be a better fit for us. She then continued on to go over the process of the home study process. Once she was done, she asked us if we had any questions and I said I did. I had made a list of questions to make sure to ask, although she had already answered a number of them, but first, I wanted to say that her initial statement to us was so disheartening. We have known families who have found what they were looking for through Children's Services and for her to say it is not the right avenue was kind of off putting. Not to mention that the woman we have been working with up until this point with her, has been very encouraging and assured us that this was a good fit. She softened up and said that she didn't mean to be that way and that it just takes a few placements before you find your forever baby. Basically that we have to be prepared to foster and give the baby back too. I asked some more questions and we scheduled our first at-home visit for our home visit.
My husband and I walked out of the building feeling pretty bummed out. We stopped and talked it out for a bit before departing. We decided that we are prepared to foster a couple of babies if we need to, if it means finding our baby.
But I can't help but keep going back to what she originally said....So I am looking into other avenues. I am aware of Children's Services' purpose, but I can't shake this feeling that she may be right. I hope she isn't. I really felt like we were on the right path until she came along.